This post was inspired by a post written by Kim over on The Later Levels, please check out the original post! Link to which is here!
I’ll start this entry by asking the same question Kim did. As writers, do you talk about what you create to those around you? I thought I’d talk about what went on with One Nerds Brain in its infancy and where it is currently in its life.
I never used to talk about the blog, the idea of people finding out who I was would make me feel ill. I talk about this so much, but my mental illnesses can have me believing some very cruel and questionable things.
I started my own blog after seeing how happy my best friend, who has her own blog, seemed to be able to write and express herself. So I started my own. I had no idea what I was doing with it, or where I was going, but here I am. I was terrified to tell her I made my own because I thought she’d be angry that I “copied” here. Which is daft, we’re both nearly 30, been friends for over a decade and she’s a mother, so I doubt it would even cross my mind.
I was also terrified that people would work out who I am, then use the content against me, or just mock me for it. I’ve encountered some people in my life, for one reason or another, who’ve been no good for me. I talk about experiences involving said people and I didn’t want them giving me hassle about it. I don’t talk about them in a way that would identify them, nor do I use it as a way to seek vengeance, I just want to help people through my experiences. Unless you know me personally, or are one of the people involved in the subject, you won’t know who I’m talking about. I’m an open book when it comes to my life, while I don’t actively talk about some aspects of it, I will always be upfront and open. Obviously, some subjects are too personal.
I started to dabble in writing about video games and I’ve always wanted to branch out into other subjects. I don’t know if I for the whole lifestyle blog aspect, but I see myself as a mashup of a geek blog and that. Of course, my writing needs improvement, but I’ve always put pressure on myself to excel at things at an unobtainable rate. At the back of my mind, I doubted if I should even continue at times and I’d often picture people from my past or even strangers sharing my posts around to mock me.
I made socials for my blog, then decided one day after being terrified people would find out who I was, I just revealed my own identity. I’m making that sound dramatic, but for me it was a big step.
Do I talk about my writing now? Yes. I share my links on my blog account, I share them to my personal pages and I’ve told a few people I’m close to in real life about it too.
The Stace people know offline is mostly the same as the person you’ll see online. The only differences tend to be anxiety related and my temperament is different. Outside of the internet, I am very introverted and not as “outspoken” as my social media profiles will make you think. I still talk about all the same things I blog about, but I’m not usually the one to instigate conversations, though I will chew your ear off if we do end up conversing about a subject I feel strongly about once I feel comfortable around you. 😊
I’m not really sure if the people who know about my blog actively read what I write about. I’ve never pushed the subject, I know that I have their support and that is enough for me. It’s never been about views for me, I wanted a place where I could freely express myself. While views are nice, it wouldn’t stop me writing if nobody even glanced my way, but I will always be grateful for those who do.
Thank you for sticking with me. ❤️
Thank you for your time. Things have been up in the air for me lately and I’m doing my best to get back into healthy routines.
I also have a Ko-Fi page which can be found here. I use it mainly for longer updates, but donations are always appreciated, but not expected. I’m just grateful that I have the chance to write and for anybody who chooses to read.
– Stace xo