Favourite YouTube Channels

I saw Michelle from A Geek Girls Guide posted one of these YouTuber Appreciation posts, she was inspired by Belghast from Tales of the Aggronaut and a similar post he did, shared inspiration is always great!

So here are my favourite YouTubers, for the moment anyway, sometimes I go through phases! 😅

Call Me Kevin

I have written a post about Kevin before, I wasn’t proud of it, but I digress. The link I shared is one of one of my favourite episodes of his Minecraft “series”. He doesn’t really post let’s play in a conventional sense. He usually plays games as a one off thing, he’ll add mods to games and break them in hilarious ways, and good stuff like that.

Watching his videos never fails to make me laugh.

That Chapter

Unintentionally continuing with the Irish theme, this channel popped up in my recommended videos and I wound up really enjoying his content. I’ve been interested in true crime for the majority of my adult life. I find it disturbing, obviously, but I find it interesting at the same time. This is one video of his that caught my attention lately.

His content isn’t for the squeamish or the faint of heart, but if you can stomach this type of thing, it might be up your alley.

Dead Meat

I am a big fan of horror movies, and this channel provides a montage for the deaths in horror movies. The host is very charismatic and usually enjoys the movies that he watches, he provides fantastic commentary.

Much like my previous entry, his content isn’t for those for the faint of heart, but is a good watch for any horror movie fan.

The Russian Badger

Rainbow Six: Siege is one of my favourite games, I share a love/hate relationship with it.  A friend recommended his channel to me and I’ve enjoyed the content ever since. He has a larger than life personality.#

He doesn’t take the game seriously, or himself for that matter. He just has a blast playing the games that he plays, and I honestly aspire to be that level of calm with multiplayer games! 😅

Thank you for your time! The topics of my Wednesday posts are usually random, until I get a set theme going. My usual routine is Monday for mental health posts and Friday for video game related. 😁

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Mental Health Monday’s: Surviving Being Ghosted

It took all the strength I had not to fall apart
Kept trying hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart
And I spent, oh, so many nights just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry, but now I hold my head up high

–  I Will Survive by Gloria Gaynor

Story time, I met a guy through Twitter around mid 2015. I’d been 6 months out of a long term relationship prior to this, which had ended in a very devastating fashion for me. 2014 and 2015 were just horrendous for me in general, but I digress.

Myself and this person had exchanged a few tweets while I was in said relationship, but we really got closer, or so I thought we did post after the breakdown of the aforementioned relationship.
He sent me a private message and from there we exchanged numbers. We talked for a while, I ended up really liking who I thought he was.

We wound up texting for a year, he was super sweet towards me, we wound up deciding to be in a relationship. I’d get good morning texts each day, I’d start my day reading “good morning, gorgeous. “How’s my girl today?”. After the cruel way my former boyfriend ended our relationship, this was such a lovely change of pace, although deep down, I didn’t trust him fully. I was right not to.

Without warning one day, I was blocked, he wouldn’t reply to me, it hurt and I found myself constantly checking my phone. Whenever I heard a notification from my phone I would excitedly reach for my phone and my heart would sink when it would be anyone other than him. He did come back into my life briefly, but then cut me off, once again. That was the last I heard from him, I honestly couldn’t care less now but at the time? It felt as if my world had crumbled again, I lost my boyfriend and now this guy who I thought cared about me.

It was a chaotic few months after that, I did not look after myself at all. I didn’t eat, I was constantly dehydrated, I barely slept and to sleep, I would increase my medication dosage just to sleep, it would make my heart beat feel shallow and my whole body would feel heavy. I put my own health at risk because of how someone made me feel, that is something you should never do!

I survived and I am now in a very stable relationship with a very wonderful man, Ben has done so much for me, I can’t imagine my life without him.

Here are some of the things I did to survive the pain that I was feeling at the time. Please keep in mind, that this is a marathon and not a sprint. What works for me might not work for you.

Focus on a hobby/find a new hobby
I felt like I was stuck in a rut, I had made this person my world. I felt like I needed those texts throughout the day, I’d wake up early to see them. Without them, I felt I had nothing to wake up for.

I actually started this blog because of that incident and another incident with another person after seeing how much my best friend’s blog helped her cope with her struggles.

I have been overwhelmed myself with the blog many times, I often tell myself I need to post daily and my work would have to look very professional. If you start something like this, do not expect too much of yourself and do it for fun, Views and likes are great, but shouldn’t be the reason you start something like this.

Reach out to loved ones
One of the best things I ever did was spend time with my friends, it felt nice to be away from my thoughts for a while. I would go up to visit my friend and his mother, go see my best friend and her kids, go out into the city to play pool. They supported me through the rough time, and they helped me reinforce the idea in me that one person does not define my worth.

Go for a walk
I know chances are you won’t feel like doing this, but it honestly helped me. The same 4 walls will start feeling like a prison eventually, I used to go to the local park and walk around for a few hours a day.
I would feel anxious at first, but over time it felt natural. Playing Pokémon Go was a great help to me too.

Fresh air can honestly do wonders for the soul.

You can get through it, I promise.

So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it’s all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won’t drown
And one day, what’s lost can be found

– Stand in the Rain by Superchick

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Modern Warfare: Beta Impressions

I haven’t really cared for Call of Duty for a good few years, the last game I bought myself was Ghosts, that game felt underwhelming to me, so I gave up on it. I’ve played a few games in the series since, on friends systems or the odd free trial here and there, they never held my attention the way they used to though. As of now, Black Ops 2 is still my favourite, it’s also too early to tell how this game will be received at launch, but here are my impressions of the beta. 

I’m really grateful this game has colour blind settings, while I’m not colour blind myself, my eye condition makes me sensitive to light, so those settings are a godsend! Although, one thing that has troubled me in the beta is the lack of options to increase the size of the texts on menus.

As seen in the photo below, the writing is really small in some parts, even with my glasses, I couldn’t make it out without moving closer to my screen.  I have Keratoconus, it impairs my vision, to read more about it, click here.

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The gameplay is fun, hectic and an absolute blast to play. Shots connect, the gunplay is smooth, there are a variety of options so you can find what suits you. Apart from the odd occasion here and there, it doesn’t feel unfair when you lose a gun fight.

There is a great range of perks and equipment, I lost count of how many times I ran into claymores and grenades. It was quite funny watching my character rag doll through the air.

I only really stuck with the quick play option at the time of this post, I played Domination, Headquarters and Team Deathmatch. I’m not really a fan of the last mode I mentioned, but the other two are fast, frantic fun. Minus the usual instance of people hiding in corners, but that happens in pretty much any shooter.

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I really like this lobby setup, I remember the screens from the older games being very bland, there are only limited characters at the moment to choose from, with it being a beta and all but imagine how this will look when the full lineup is available. It sets up the upcoming matches very well.

Overall, I had a blast. I had a few rage fits here and there, I also dropped out of a few games when I got mad, but the fun factor is definitely there. It was a bit of an odd feeling coming back to this type of shooter when I play Siege so often, but it didn’t take all that long to get into the swing of things.

I even made a small montage showing clips of me being better than my usual die over and over antics in video games! 😂

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Thank you for your time, I don’t tend to post on Sunday’s, my usual slot for video games is Friday, I just had a blast with this and wanted to get it out as soon as possible, Friday’s post won’t be affected, that will be a first impression post for the new Rainbow Six Siege content. ❣

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The N.Sane Trilogy: No Thank You, Stormy Ascent

I recently bought the N.Sane Trilogy again after playing the Spyro games and feeling nostalgic for the other platformer from the PS1 days, our favourite orange marsupial, Crash Bandicoot.
Stormy Ascent was originally a cut level from the original Crash Bandicoot game, it was deemed as “too difficult” for the game. If you want to see what it originally looked like, here is YouTube User GarlandTheGreat playing through the stage, and making it look easy.  

The stage saw new life through the N.Sane trilogy, and I avoided it until recently, I figured it would annoy me, and oh dear, it did! Even the loading screen not so subtly implies the utter chaos that will follow once you begin the stage.

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I can honesty say that I regret even attempting it. I find the level design to be poor, it relies too much on timing, which for me, is an absolute nightmare to get right. There is very little room for errors, the stage Slippery Climb is far more forgiving. While it is difficult, the only real hassle the stage provided for me was getting the red gem, I failed that enough times to get a gold relic for the time trial, that was enough for me.

If you’re a completionist, or just curious about the stage, go for it. It is worth a try. I actually had a blast to begin with. It was funny to me how often I’d mistime a jump and end up having to attempt it all over again, I’d never been happier to see a checkpoint crate in my life!
But, the further I got, the more irritating it got for me, I managed to snap my controllers charging table when I pulled my controller in rage, forgetting that it was plugged in. That is a me problem, but if something can get me that annoyed, I let it go.

It was fun while it lasted, Stormy Ascent, I see why you were removed and I question why you were brought back, but it was nice that you were. We got a new stage for an old game, and we got to see what an utter headache you were! 😂

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This screenshot is only a preview of what chaos awaits you. I did manage to make a good old fail montage of my attempt, so there’s that! You’ll even see my life count plummet faster than my sanity playing this!

It is entirely possible to complete the stage, it just takes time and patience, which is something I lacked in this instance. Emphasis on the lack of patience.

If you want to see someone complete the stage perfectly, here is my friends platinum relic run of the level, as well as the other levels if you go back to the beginning of this video. 

Maybe you’ll enjoy this stage, it just wasn’t for me.

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Thank you for your time, I post gaming posts each Friday. If that’s your thing, a like is always nice, maybe even a follow. If not, that’s cool. I’m just grateful for your visit to my little corner of the world wide web.

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Criminally Underutilised WWE Superstars!

Throughout the years, it seems that the WWE isn’t always aware of what they have with their rosters, with so many superstars signed at once, it makes sense some would get lost in the fray, or they choose to push others over them for whatever reason, but I digress.

Some of these superstars have had a main event push, some haven’t. Some might be active, others might not be. To stop this list ending up with me, mainly complaining about the era of the divas, I asked a friend for his input.

This is an opinion post, so take what is said with a pinch of salt!

The Miz
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This one really annoys me. He has held the WWE Championship and is more than worthy of another top of the card run, but he seems to have been relegated to the mid-card over the past few years. While there’s no shame in holding The Intercontental championship, he has the in ring skills and the mic skills to be holding the Universal Championship and being the top heel. He is much better as a heel. He is AWESOME, pun intended.

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Christian first debuted as the tag team partner of Edge, we won’t get into the whole abandoned brothers thing here. He was charismatic, he knew how to work a crowd, he had good promo skills, great in the ring, but he always seemed to be in the more successful Edge’s shadow. He is a legend in his own right, my favourite WWE feuds of his happened with Randy Orton, the No Holds Barred match at Summer Slam in 2011 and his heel turn against Edge in 2001, they just stand out to me.

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In my opinion, she is held back by being paired with Mandy Rose. I don’t have anything against Mandy Rose, the two being paired up just doesn’t seem to be working out for either of them, when you look back at her matches with Lacey Evans, and even her No Holds Barred match with Ruby Riott, another female superstar deserving of more, you’d think she’d be doing much better than she is. She has so much potential, but WWE doesn’t seem to be using her to her potential. Personally, I’d like to see her in a feud with Ronda Rousey, that’d be a good watch.

Ruby Riott
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Before her WWE run, she held many titles in the independent circuit and is, without a doubt, is one of the most talented women on the roster. The closest she got to a current WWE women’s title was a losing effort against Charlotte Flair at Fastlane in 2018.

Sadly, she is currently sidelined with injury, but I’m hoping when she returns, she gets a solo push now she is not shackled down by The Riott Squad, like Sonya Deville, being in a heel faction isn’t what is best for her, or the former Riott Squad members.

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Thank you for your time, this Wednesday slot is purely experimental for the moment, so the content might not be consistent. Monday’s are for mental health though, and Friday for gaming.

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Being Honest With Yourself

People always seem to say that honesty is the best policy. I always try to live by those words, yet the person I find it hardest to be honest with is me.

I’ve got a plethora of mental health issues, I’ve noticed I’ve started to struggle more physically, I’ve got Keratoconus which affects my vision. Overall? It’s absolutely draining trying to make heads or tails of it all. Especially when some disorders play off others, but I digress.

I don’t know why I hate using these words, when I’m always telling people to shout them from the rooftops, I need help. I need so much help. I struggle, a lot, with things that others my age can do without effort. I need help with keeping my moods/emotions in check, I need help with oh so many things in my life.

I am not able to cope with any inconvenience, I immediately crumble. The smallest things can trigger panic attacks, I’ve lost my cool over dropping a plate that was wet, I wish this was a joke, I ended up crying on the floor next to the fragments of the broken bowl!

I’ve always had this headstrong and stubborn nature, it makes me feel so low knowing I cannot cope. I need the help, but it hurts my pride reaching out. I know there’s no shame in it, but my nature always fights against it.

I just feel like a burden lately, I can’t help myself, I don’t feel good enough for my boyfriend, I hate the fact I’m the way I am.

It will pass, it always does, but it still hurts in the meantime.

August 2019: What I’ve Been Playing & Goals for September

Well, it seems like I blinked and August just ran away! I did manage to rattle off a game from my backlog, I also managed to add to it, but I digress!

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I finally finished Red Dead Redemption 2, and what a phenomenal game it was. Out of the many Rockstar Games I’ve played, I don’t think I’ve ever outright hated any of them, I wasn’t the biggest fan of GTA IV, but I digress.

Both of the Red Dead titles are up there in my list of favourite games, Arthur slightly nudged John Marston  and Trevor Phillips out of the way of my favourite Rockstar protagonist, he was perfectly written and to me, came across as a good guy caught up in a bad life. Although, his moral stance is left up to each player’s choice. So take what I said with a pinch of salt.

I will have my own review of the game up in time, I just don’t want to rush the post since I loved the game. Stephen Brown over at the Honest Gamer Blog summed up how I felt about Arthur on his post about the character, if you like gaming content, give him a follow. The link to his post is here.

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I finally started this game, better late than ever, Ben bought it for me last Christmas but I always get caught up with other games. It’s glorious, I love every aspect of the Atlus games I play. I just wish you could take screen shots, I’d love to share them.

I’m about 20-30 hours in, and I will be putting a lot more time into this, there will be a post on this eventually!

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After my last post about Minecraft, cheeky self promotion here,  I got the itch to start a new world, but on survival mode, I’m playing it on easy because I wanted a chilled out experience. I live near a illager base and I set up my place of residence at the back of a village, so I get involved in a lot of raids, it’s great for a source of emeralds and arrows, but a pain other than that. I’ve accumulated a lot of animals for a farm, I post screen shots of that over on my Instagram, that link is at the end of my post.

Minecraft always relaxes me, I love playing and often lose time playing it. I also enjoy sitting there playing while listening to music or podcasts on Spotify.

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Last but not least, old reliable, Siege. I’ve been playing a lot less, though. Operation Phantom Sight has been a mess to put it politely. Exploits, the community being toxic, the mouse and keyboard issues on console, the operators that were released not living up to what we thought they would be. I scrapped my first impressions post because I honestly had nothing to say. The new season starts the September 10th, so I’m hoping that’s better. I don’t know if I’ll do a summary post for the season when it ends, but I am hopeful the coming season will be better.

When I have been playing, I’ve been trying to get better with IQ (left), Mira (right) and the weapons pictured in the screenshots. The new operators will share the pictured weapons so it’s good to practice.

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My goals are to play at least 2 of the games pictured above for a potential Halloween theme for Goth Christmas, or as it is actually known, Halloween, I’ve decided to go easier on myself with gaming goals. I seem to have a knack of overwhelming myself and then not doing anything. I would also like to play Blair Witch before my game pass runs out, or it leaves the subscription!

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Thank you for your time! I post gaming posts every Friday! If you like what you see, a follow is always appreciated. Either way, I’m just grateful you took the time to look at my blog. Thank you.

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